Sunday, October 29, 2006

Finally my heart starts to recover a little by little, it feels the blood going through it again instead of the chocking of sadness and sorrow. Though its been an awful 8 1/2 days of fight on this battlefield, the scale was huge and the impact was overwhelming.... i did manage to stand up with the help of hope and courage which i found inside that one shattered but under healing heart. Sniff* its good to feel alive, to be able to rest without the nightmares running through my mind for the pass few nights. Today, i waked to a new start of this relationship. A relationship which i placed my all into to love and cherish with all my heart once again.

Its good that i could walk out of my room with a smile on my face again. I'm sorry for those who kept standing by my side caring unconditionally.Thanks guys... thanks for understanding the situation. Well...i really wish i could thank my mum now for being there for me in the darkest hours of my life. If it was not for her i could not have hung in there long enough to see the world ever again. She was the pillar of strength and has always been for me through my years and if the thought of her didn't ran pass my mind... i knew the outcome would be a dreadful one.


Now its a sunshine after the rain, she has gone out to purchase and do some stuff with her friend. Well here i am typing as per normal again. Just got back from grandma's place. Its good to know everyone is still fine over there and ya... smile* Its good to know the fight is over and that she's finally ready to face me without the walls that use to block me out. I pray these walls never return again. I'm gonna have to allow this heart to regenerate with the love she gives again. Please respect my decision guys =) and thanks for the countless words of encouragement.
Julian - Signing out -

Sunday, October 29, 2006