Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Its been 3 days of ups and downs and well.... Now i'm left with myself to sit here to think deeper then before.For this pass 4 months, i realized that changes has been taking place in my life, something which happens naturally without setting a goal but it through mistakes and misunderstanding where i picked up all this pieces and place them back into our puzzle.

What makes it last? i'v been think really hard wrecking my head and searching in my soul to find that perfect answer to make things last for eternity. Feeling quite useless all of a sudden. its like i feel like i lost my sense of hearing and touch but i'm left with my sight to see each step crumble without the ability to stop the unwanted changes. How am i to love when i am stopped from loving? how am i to improve when i am never exposed to what i should do or what should be done at the right time....how am i to love someone.... it can't be as easy as saying I Love You.

Gotta admit at times i'm kinda muddle headed in stuff... being a slow learner and never noticing the surrounding and peoples around me and those causes me to fall really hard once and again... realizing the mistakes, i made the point of always picking myself up and changing for the better. Shiff... i could no longer hold all the love i hide inside and the mistakes i made causing myself to the very end of uselessness... Wish someone could knock me awake from this bumbness.

Its been a while since i came to realize how much cherishing someone means... never feeling this before, i started searching for answers from mistakes and happy moments. It came out to be understanding each others, appreciate each others loving actions and understanding the heart of your partner. Its never healthy to predict the future but always treat each others actions and love for each other like its gonna be the last one in life. We'r never a burden to each other, if one is to love and cherish, the heart is willing to be placed on the line for the worse outcome but even before that day arrives, it will keep on fighting for the best, never going to give up even when the chances are 1-100... I'm never gonna give up.

Loving is the start, enduring and realizeing, appreciate and cherishing is the process which makes the heart change and work for the better... making the bond stronger and tighter clearing all the dark clouds and walls which deny our feelings and actions which could be spoken without a misunderstanding. An easier place to hold each other hand in hand walking down the never ending road with the least ups and downs... and lastly.... the outcome will be something sweet....some worth fighting for. Its said that to give up is not worth the fight as u know the outcome would be a bitter one.... but to fight is to never regret the outcome of the downfall as you tried... i tried. And if the outcome is sweet....would life be a 1000000 reasons to live together forever?....

I choose to fight....even if it takes how much the time , effort , blood, tears and sorrow.... i won't give up to learn....

good night.

Tuesday, October 24, 2006