Wednesday, December 20, 2006
<3~ J
<3~~ U
<3~~~ L O V E
<3~K R I S (.") <3>
<3~~~~~ A
<3~~~~~~ N
<3~~~~~~~
<3~~~~~~~~
<3~~~~~~~~~
Birthday is just around the corner ^^
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
10.30pm, Dad has finally turned in, the time has come again. Mummy, Adrian, Kevin, sorry i gotta leave this way but its for the better, i need to find a space outside this 4 walls to think. Sorry i didn't join dinner with you adrian & Mummy, was held up with some stuff too... Staring outside, i know its gonna be a wicked night to endure but hey, life is never easy when u wish they were A B C. When all fails, you know u need to be alone.
I'm leaving for now, with a little pouch containing nothing more then my cellphone , wallet and keys. Lets just say its for the moment, lets just put it the way that i turned back time 4 days back from now. Even as i sit here, the cold wind blows through the window sending shivers down my spine... Its just 3 days more to my 21st Bday and well, things has never been smooth sailing as expected. Maybe i should have just ignored what i saw today. Maybe i should have sealed my lips and sew my eyes shut to ignore the sights and sounds.
Well, it time to go. 3 days... does love have to kept in silent or voiced out to show? Well, i guess it should be kept in silent now. GoodBye home, good bye family, goodbye "you know who you are" cause when the next time u see me, it won't be blood that flows through me, it would be the sorrow from the heavens raining down now.
The Last Tear....
The Last Smile....
The Last Sounds of weeping....
The Last.... JulianGohHanShen"DEAD"
Trust don't come like a Snap, it comes from assurance
Believe don't come like a yea*, it comes from Trust
Love don't come like the wind, it comes from Actions
Hurt don't come like the Rain, it comes from you
If i was to spell the word on my mind out loud, it would be this.....
Kill Me.
why?
Cause i wanna die right now.
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
Friday, December 15, 2006
Tale as old as timeTrue as it can beBarely even friendsThen somebody bendsUnexpectedly.
Just a little change,small to say the least, both a little scared, Neither one prepared, Beauty and the Beast.
Ever just the sameEver a surpriseEver as beforeEver just as sureAs the sun will rise.
Tale as old as timeTune as old as songBittersweet and strangeFinding you can changeLearning you were wrong.
Certain as the sunRising in the eastTale as old as timeSong as old as rhymeBeauty and the Beast.
Tale as old as timeSong as old as rhymeBeauty and the Beast.
Friday, December 15, 2006
Thursday, December 14, 2006
Thursday, =) dear took the effort to get me a mini cake for my wish to be able to celebrate birthday in school with school uniform. The surprise made my tears flow down.I'm glad the chance came when i didn't expect it to. Well, though the actual day is on 22th, this is something i never get to experience in my entire life and well =) i must say i'm happy and contented. who would not be? ^^ am lucky and bless. Happy birthday 2 me, Happy birthday 2 me, happy birthday happy birthday. happy birthday to me!*
Tomorrow is the last day of school le. Guess its goodbye soon and yea, gonna miss some and be glad and contented of what i learned and got, favoured and loved in this year of education. Haiz, gonna rain again le. Hope tonight can make it with dear to her grandma's birthday successfully.
Signing Out - Julian " dear, thanks for everything"
Thursday, December 14, 2006
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Its raining cats and gots as i sit here and type in my dim room... Staring outside the window, the sight of trees swurving as the roaring wind rushing through the leaves, the infinit drops of rain pouring down and the constant flashing of the roaring thunder. Yea, its just another day i guess. My leg achs hours before the rain, makes me feel like i am a weather man who sees the coming rain haz...
Dear is not feeling well, she's home taking care of EnEn as usual. How much i wish i could be there for her now, to be by her side, to take care of the baby girl, to give her some space for her rest and sleep. Sometimes do we ever wonder in a non scientific way why does the sky pours out it sorrow and changes to darkness? with the constant cry of the thunder and the pouring tons of tears? I guess even the weather feels sorrowful sometime.
Tomorrow is thursday and its the 2nd last day of the 2nd sem of my school life. After this, there won't be any more books or test, only an attatchment for 2 months and in a whiles time, it time to face the working society. Time flys real quick, a grueling 2 years in army and now soon an ending 1 year of this retail course. There are many done's which i made in this near 7 month, many i though would be great and some for a life time. I wish the life-time decision gets the blessings around me and you. Together in your arms is where i wanna be, walking this never ending road to the last standing end. Alas, i knew the choice was fantastic.
With Love
Julian
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Friday, December 08, 2006
Argh...Today i got up with this pain killing me in my left leg....Its been 8 months since i had this injury but it seems to be getting a lot more worse recently... I think i can be a weatherman now, whenever my leg hurts, i know its gonna rain and yea it does rain -.-" Am gonna seek consultation and an X-Ray later in clementi polyclinic with the company of my dear. Man.. hate the doctors... Sniff*
Well, today i had this interiew test in school and its went real good, Ms Anna was real happy and yea, Thumbs up haha ^^ After that i went to accompany dear for her 2.4km Run. I am very PROUD of her ^^ though with a stomach cramp, she manage to complete the run in 2nd place without giving up halfway =) I love to see her with that fighting spirit, am so so proud!
Oh yea, just now i had a game with my Ex Gay Partner Shayne haha "Fake one la" A table tennis game and i send him back to taiwan hahaha! Yea..... ! Oops... Sorry bro ^^ Haha..=P but we will have a rematch soon la ok? hehe. I don't wanna offend this guy or else he might rush home and assisinate me with his $XXXX Archery Bow haha =P K la... time to go le. Signing out - Julian.
Friday, December 08, 2006
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Kinda retarded to know about this right guys? Haha... Well, its time to make a change, gonna listen more to Chinese songs to improve my 2nd language! Hmmm... it was kinda a twist of faith. Yesterady while at home dazing in my room, this chinese song suddenly came running through my head. It was coming from My bro's Kevin room.... Quite meaningful and reminds me of some moments i went through so.... i decided to learn =) Ooooo*
Well, am late for school today, haha, shayne called my bro to look for me today =P quite shocking but its good to know friends care so much hehe ^^ Haz....Just completed Excel Assignment and is slacking here in this computer lab again. There's still an hours and a 1/2 more before school ends. Time to play some games on dear's blog lolz =) silly apple catching yet so fun, reminds of kidos games hahah ^^ easy easy no kick 1. =P
Wednesday, December 06, 2006