Tuesday, December 19, 2006
10.30pm, Dad has finally turned in, the time has come again. Mummy, Adrian, Kevin, sorry i gotta leave this way but its for the better, i need to find a space outside this 4 walls to think. Sorry i didn't join dinner with you adrian & Mummy, was held up with some stuff too... Staring outside, i know its gonna be a wicked night to endure but hey, life is never easy when u wish they were A B C. When all fails, you know u need to be alone.
I'm leaving for now, with a little pouch containing nothing more then my cellphone , wallet and keys. Lets just say its for the moment, lets just put it the way that i turned back time 4 days back from now. Even as i sit here, the cold wind blows through the window sending shivers down my spine... Its just 3 days more to my 21st Bday and well, things has never been smooth sailing as expected. Maybe i should have just ignored what i saw today. Maybe i should have sealed my lips and sew my eyes shut to ignore the sights and sounds.
Well, it time to go. 3 days... does love have to kept in silent or voiced out to show? Well, i guess it should be kept in silent now. GoodBye home, good bye family, goodbye "you know who you are" cause when the next time u see me, it won't be blood that flows through me, it would be the sorrow from the heavens raining down now.
The Last Tear....
The Last Smile....
The Last Sounds of weeping....
The Last.... JulianGohHanShen"DEAD"
Trust don't come like a Snap, it comes from assurance
Believe don't come like a yea*, it comes from Trust
Love don't come like the wind, it comes from Actions
Hurt don't come like the Rain, it comes from you
If i was to spell the word on my mind out loud, it would be this.....
Kill Me.
why?
Cause i wanna die right now.
Tuesday, December 19, 2006